I've just caught I Am Sam for the thousandth time yesterday night in the comfort of my small cosy room. I didn't manage to catch it on channel 5 on Sat night, bcos...i was out til pretty late.
no, i'm not jumping on the bandwagon, i've been a Sean Penn fan for a DAMN long time already, ever since catching I Am Sam all the way back in Anderson Sec.

yes, it made me cry every time i watch it. without a doubt, one of my fav shows of all time.
and yes, i favour it over Titanic. haha.

met up with eric and xuan and their fren, matthew, last week for dinner at PS's Manhattan Fishmarket. Really good stuff!
xuan and i shared the flaming platter thing, where they actually used some huge flame to melt the cheese spread atop the prawn. i'm quite scared of fire. lol.
the 2 guys had the same thing too, and eric asked whether they served a platter for 4. LOL.
when xuan told me both of them was gonna be a deadly combination, i was pretty apprehensive.
but it all proved to be good after that cos i laughed til i almost died. such great fun and company!
xuan and i had our usual ice cream after that for dessert. haha. yes we went to visit stephen over at the Hilton Hotel. and we just talked.
we love the night life! more of it soon k? =)

i sent an sms to someone the other day, and it went like this :
"i think no matter how much you liked XXX that time, he could never be YYY.. I think for us to truly truly love someone we have to be with them for some time, and then we'll decide whether it's worthwhile to invest time and energy into it.. But the fact that we always go back to the same person shows that we have not met the one person who will be able to take our breath away.."

"That someone to take our breaths away.... That someone who will be able to give us that lovin feelin, who has the same chemistry, who makes you forget about everything else in the world, whose eyes you see your future in, who makes everything else seem right, who sweeps you off your feet... Its like no matter whoever new you meet, he cant measure up.. Because he'll lack that special something with us, and no matter how much we do like him, it doesn't matter in the end, cos he wont be able to give us the same damn feeling.. Sigh"

"You know, with every little obstacle, we change.. We become more cynical. Wary. We are who we are today because of our past experiences. There's nothing to blame when you live life. But we never know what life brings, whether life would throw in another spanner, or bring out a rainbow, but it's up to us to try to be optimistic about it. Because we always pray for a better day when we can be stronger than before. And we pray for our fairytales.. Because no matter how much sheet we have to live through, we HAVE lived through it, and we can't help but still hold that really tiny tinge of faith within us, although it gets smaller everytime, it's still faith, and that we still have a fairytale to dream of.. No matter what it turns out, the castle might not be a castle. But it helps us live each day with that tiny tiny tiny amount of hope.."

i was in the process of clearing my sent messages when i came across these lengthy smses i sent to the same person. while typing it helped me clear my mind about a lot of things, and i hope it helped her too. in the end, we never do know what the future brings..

its been a very emotional week, because i found out more stuff about what my dad said. and i'm immensely disappointed.. not gonna say anything more about it here, cos i cant phrase it in words.

- the worst thing about being lied to.. is knowing that you're not worth the truth. -

i've been quite a bukit timah lover these days, fri onn shaun and i had dinner at Al-Azar (however you spell it) after his match at safra. sat i watched sam wong play joshua wong, which was super damn exciting, bcos sam, to us, is the stamina king. LOL.
headed to tp's pizza hut after that with the guys and we had a good laugh over dinner. topics ranged from army to squash and then everything under the sun. heh.
the cheesy bites thing tasted quite good, and seriously we were all quite hungry.
headed down to bukit timah after dinner to meet mianli. it has been a long time since i last saw him actually. plain old catching up. and yes the continuous jacks about me being a guy went on the entire day. LOL.
even the waiter in pizza hut was wondering la.

shit. i have a sudden craving for garlic bread.

anyway, i realised that my inbox and sent messages contains too many messages, so i started a deleting spree this morning. but somehow i couldn't bring myself to delete particular messages. although it was just a simple msg, i just couldnt delete it. and most of my inbox was occupied by the same person. HMM.

oh well. its time for safra again tml for jessie's match! =)
shes playing esther mok.HMMMMM.
going down to these kinda events brought back my sec sch memories, when we had the Wilson Opens and Head Opens then. I used to be the one of the officials calling participants regarding their match timings and fixtures. I loved the atmosphere then, and Safra Open made me relive those memories. although it has been a very long time, i will never forget it. never.